I need you to love me.

Why, why are You still here with me
Didn't You see what I've done?
In my shame I want to run and hide myself
But it's here I see the truth
I don't deserve You

[Chorus:]
But I need You to love me, and I
I won't keep my heart from You this time
And I'll stop this pretending that I can
Somehow deserve what I already have
I need You to love me

I, I have wasted so much time
Pushing You away from me
I just never saw how You could cherish me
'Cause You're a God who has all things
And still You want me

Your love makes me forget what I have been
Your love makes me see who I really am
Your love makes me forget what I have been

This song spoke to my heart. The words really describe something I have realized the last few months.

-I don't deserve Him.

-I have spent so much time pushing Him away.

-I have kept my heart from Him.

-I have messed up beyond imagination.

But He STILL wants me.

I need to Stop pretending that I can deserve what He's already done.

I will never deserve what He has already done.

It is by His grace, His love, His death that we are saved.

That I am saved.

2 Corinthians 12: 9-10

"And He has said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for power is perfected in weakness." Most gladly, therefore, I will rather boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may dwell in me. Therefore I am well content with weaknesses, with insults, with distresses, with persecutions, with difficulties, for Christ's sake; for when I am weak, then I am strong."

Here is the link in case you want to listen to the song by Barlow Girl:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5QaM8l4Pn8c&feature=related

Forever His,

Rachel