Awkwardness.

Do you ever feel like you are the most awkward person alive? Like everything you do is just super awkward? And that everyone else is just super smooth and they don't even have to try? This is the story of my life.

I grew up in a family that was pretty outspoken.

But I wasn't.

I was always a very shy child and didn't say much.

For those of you that don't know,

often times awkwardness accompanies shyness.

I have definitely changed since then, being a lot more outgoing and such.

But one thing has remained the same.

I am still super awkward.

You know that awkward situation when someone is talking but you are like really nervous about talking to them, so you often times cut them off accidentally?

It's not even like you're trying to rush the conversation (maybe you are) 

but you often times just find yourself cutting into their talking time.

That's awkward.

Or when you pass someone you know on the street and you look at them, but they don't see you, so you don't say hi and do like the whole look down thing and then they see you and you were like crap I didn't say hi first.

I don't even know.

Its just awkward.

Or when you mean to be funny when you say a remark, but then no one laughs and then you just feel terrible and then it just gets awkward talking to the person.

Or when you go up to a group of people, but don't really look at someone in the group because you like them and are afraid of making eye contact with them, and then they will suspect you like them or some crazy mess like that. So you don't really look at them, and make it more awkward.

That's just so awkward!

Or when you trip 

ALL. THE. TIME.

And sometimes spill your cereal milk all over the Milledge bus because you fall out of your seat on the turn, or tend to trip up the stairs and spill half your newly bought 4 dollar Dasani waterbottle all over the innocent girl in the 5th row of the movie theater.

That is just so stinkin awkward.

Oh Lord. Help me to stop being so awkward.

Sometimes I think it affects my social life.

No wait. That's all the time.

Forever His,

Rachel