Monty Python anyone?

somedays i feel like monty python. now, i honestly have no idea who he is, what he does, or even if i spelled his name right. all i know is that in one of his movies he searches for the meaning of life. heck, i might even be wrong about that. but that's not the point.

the point is i too am searching.

seeking after knowledge.

looking for hidden treasure.

knocking so that the door may be opened for me.

this is all good and well. right?

but my question for you is

"how much searching is too much searching?"

"how far is too far?"

we are only meant to know so much right?

i mean, if we knew everything, we would be God. correct?

and im not sure if i've already established my feelings on this particular topic,

but i decided i never ever would want to be God.

Not that He isn't wonderful and amazing, my goodness, He created us!

but just thinking about how big He is and how much He holds together moment by moment,

it scares me.

ok. ya. sure. He's God.

but seriously.

think about it.

take a second.

you obviously have some extra time on your hands here or else you wouldn't be reading my blog.

busted.

but for real.

He holds the universe together.

and when i say universe, i don't just mean the universe.

He holds every single tiny part that makes up the universe together.

every single atom that makes up a molecule that makes up a cell that makes up tissues and fibers that make up objects that make up other parts that help to exchange gases with the air and the sea level always stays at the right level and the earth stays approximately x distance away from the sun so we don't burn to death but we also don't freeze to death and He knows when people will be born and will die and when rabbits need to be fed and storms need to happen to bring the rain to water the plants so that buffalos can drink and knows just how long winters need to be so as not to kill the forest animals and when certain stars in the universe will burn out and how much precipitation is in the air.

and did i mention He know how many hairs are on your head and how many grains of sand are on the sea shore?

and He still has time to watch over each. one. of us.

and have a personal relationship with me. and you. and your mom.

yup.

He is that big.

and that kind of responsibility that He has,

the weight of the universe,

it seems so big to me.

but it is such a small task for Him.

man.

now that we've established that.

back to monty python and the element of searching.

i LOVE theology.

i LOVE learning about God.

and i LOVE learning about different people's view points of God and on the scriptures.

but when does my search for the truth turn into a search to be right?

to know it all?

to know everything?

i often times asking myself if my searching is a sin.

do i have the right motives?

would God be pleased that i am learning more about Him?

or is He frustrated because i am doing it for the wrong reasons?

i guess what I'm trying to say is this.

do NOT be content.

do NOT be complacent.

at least when it comes to your faith and your knowledge of the scriptures.

test everything and get to know your Father.

He already knows everything about you.

just don't take it too far.

don't become obsessed with the truth.

there are some things we aren't meant to know.

God will reveal truth to us in HIS time. not ours.

just be patient.

and remember those famous encouraging words of Monty Python......

wait for it....

wait for it..............

nope.

i've got nothing.

Forever His,

Rachel