What Makes ME Worthy?

I live in sin DAILY. And most times it is out of choice. I have the CHOICE to resist temptation. I have the CHOICE to say no to sin. But do I ever? Do I ever say no? Honestly, I can't. I can never say no to sin. Because I am a child of wrath. I was born of sin. So what. makes. me. worthy?

We hear it all the time.

"I can't believe I did that."

"I made a big mistake."

"Oops I did it again."

Ok. Maybe the last one was just Britney Spears.

But we find ourselves regretting things we do all. of. the. time.

And sometimes, we know we have done something wrong.

And we 

just

don't 

care.

Right?

Am I the ONLY one who honestly sometimes KNOWS I have sinned.

KNOWS I've done wrong.

KNOWS I've taken glory away from God.

KNOWS I have no right to do that.

And honestly, doesn't care?

Shakes it off like it's no big thing.

I've done it a million times already anyways right?

So God won't mind forgiving me once more.

Heck, I'm sure He already has.

So I won't worry about it.

And move on.

Ok.

Something is horribly wrong with that scenario.

Since when did it EVER become ok for me to sin?

When did it EVER become "no big deal" that I SINNED AGAINST GOD?

Ok.

Correction:

NOT Ok.

I am so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so

to the infinity, triple stamp, no erasies, touch blue makes it true Unworthy.

(that little piece of heaven is from Dumb and Dumber in case you are a hermit)

And I can't. stop. sinning.

WHYYYYYYYY?!?!

Oh, how I hate that we have sinful natures.

I hate that I can't MAKE myself stop sinning.

I can't do anything.

That is where Jesus comes in.

He is the ONLY one that can help me stop sinning.

He is the ONLY one that makes me worthy enough to be forgiven by God time and time again.

And I hurt HIM every single time I sin.

HE makes me worthy.

The nails in His hands are proof that I have worth.

That I am righteous and blameless in God's eyes.

Do you know what the definition of blameless is?

It means "guiltless; without blemish".

I am so perfect in God's eyes.

Regardless of the fact that I sin daily.

I am still surrounded by the filth of my sin.

I can feel it on me.

Lingering at times, because I am too ashamed to ask Jesus to take it away.

But He does anyway.

Time and time again.

And although I sin daily.

God only sees one thing when He looks at me.

And HALLELUJAH, 

that's Jesus.

Forever His,

Rachel