Rainy Day Insights

I'm just going to say it.

I. love. rainy. days.

There. I said it.

I love them. They are way up there with some of my favorite things of all time. Right next to late night deep conversations and swinging on swings at the park.

Yes. They may be dreary and sad and wet,

But I think they are one of the most beautiful parts of God's creation. 

He made this world in such a way, that when it starts to get too dry or too hot or the lakes get too low, He replenishes it! It just really amazes me.

And I love love loveee the thunder. And the lightening.

I can't even describe it.

There is just something so romantic about thunderstorms that I feel is kind of an unspoken truth. They are so beautiful and calming and exhilarating, all at the same time.

Isn't creation wonderful?

So.

As I sit here listening to the sound of the pouring rain as it hits the rooftop and the ground below, and the sound of the thunder at it gets farther and farther away, I just can't help but think about my life and how the past few months have been continuous rainy days. One after the other.

I had my weekly visit with my counselor today, where we talked about life and how I have been managing these rainy days. 

It was the usual "This is what I'm doing and this is what I know I need to do" kind of stuff.

But one thing she said really hit me.

Hard.

She said, "I feel like you have been living at the end of a buoy, drifting off at sea. The end of the buoy is tied to Jesus, but you have let yourself drift so far away, that every time a wave comes, you move with the tide. Sure, you may still be tied to Jesus, but if you are letting every decision you make day to day determine your happiness, you will be pushed around constantly and never have a firm foundation. You need to anchor yourself to the one thing that will always remain constant, no matter HOW many waves come passing by. You need to anchor yourself to Jesus. Stop letting other things determine your self worth and your happiness.

The only worth that is evenly remotely important is the worth that you find in Jesus. He will be a constant life saver for you, even if you feel like you are on the verge of drowning. Start anchoring yourself to Him and He will Never let you go. Ever."

Deep right?

I know. It just hurt me to know that I have let myself drift that far out to sea, that even the little things really get me down. It just seems plain silly.

So, that was definitely something that I really needed to hear.

Both for my spiritual life and my emotional life.

Then, I was reading my daily Isaiah reading and this is the passage I found from chapter 7...

Isaiah 7: 9

"If you do not stand firm in your faith, 

 you will not stand at all."

Ok, I don't know about you but this verse TOTALLY sums up everything I have been ranting about for the past 5 minutes.

I haven't been standing firm in my faith.

Sure, I may have been "standing" but i surely wasn't standing "firm".

And now I see that that means I wasn't even really standing at all.

You can call yourself a Christian as often as you want, as loud as you want, to whoever you want.

But if you aren't planted dead-center on Jesus, 

your faith means nothing. 

That is something that I need to work on. 

Standing firm in Him, even if it means that rest will never come.

Standing firm in Him, even if the waves are too overpowering.

Standing firm in Him, even if I am about to drown.

Because if I do not stand firm in Him, 

I will never stand at all.

Forever His,

Rachel